Running over myself was hell... but two metal bars may help me walk again
TORMENTED pop star Brian Harvey has spoken for the first time about the freak accident that saw him run over by his own car and revealed he may NEVER walk again.
In an exclusive interview with the News of the World, the stricken singer insisted he had not been trying to kill himself when he was crushed under the wheels of his Mercedes.
"It wasn't a suicide attempt," said Brian. "I've been suffering from depression and I had taken two overdoses in the weeks before the accident. But that's not what this was."
He added: "I'm hoping I will be able to walk again, but I know it will take intense physio."
Brian looks like a ghost of his former self—ashen-faced and hollow-eyed, with the huge metal brace that holds his shattered pelvis together sticking out of his battered body like a pair of handlebars.
He gasped for breath as he recalled the accident 10 weeks ago.
"I drove down the wrong cul-de-sac and was turning round when I started to feel sick.
"I undid my seatbelt and opened the door. Then I leant out and tried to stamp on the brake, but I missed and hit the accelerator. The car was still in reverse and it went out of control.
"The force of the impact flung me out and I was caught on the door then dragged underneath."
Luckily his pal, who had been giving him directions from his front door, heard the noise.
Brian said: "The next thing I knew my mate was by my side. He told me later that he'd pulled me out—and my heel was round the back of my neck."
The 30-year-old singer was rushed to nearby Whipps Cross Hospital in east London before being moved to St George's Hospital in Tooting.
Brian was comatose for two weeks and had two major five-hour operations as doctors battled to save him.
His parents were told to prepare for the worst, but Brian defied the odds, woke up and soon started to breathe by himself.
However Brian knows he still has a long way to go.
"My pelvis is broken in eight places, my lungs were crushed and my stomach was up where my lungs should be," said Brian, who also revealed he had to fight off a dose of MRSA.
Brian was released from hospital three weeks ago and is now being cared for by his model girlfriend Emma B at her home in Hastings.
Before the accident, he was in the grip of severe depression. He tried to kill himself twice by knocking back sleeping tablets.
He admitted: "I didn't want to be here. I'd had enough."
Brian traces his problems back to 1997 when he was sacked from East 17 for taking Ecstasy tablets. He said: "I swear there's some kind of syndrome you get after being in a boyband."
Since then he was attacked by machete-wielding thugs outside a club in 2001, declared bankrupt the following year and wound up in a mental unit twice.
However, the love of girlfriend Emma B has given Brian the will to live. He said: "That girl is unbelievable. She visited me every day in hospital. I couldn't ask for anyone better."
Brian believes his escape from death has been a wake-up call and he is determined to turn his life around.
"There are so many things I still want to do with my life," he said. "I'm not giving up now."
NOTW
