SLURS THAT COULD HAVE COST ME MY KIDS
EXCLUSIVE THE REAL KERRY
KERRY Katona has revealed she feared her children could be taken into care after former friends branded her a bad mother.
The mum-of-two was furious at claims she was out of control and was worried she faced investigation by social workers.
Kerry, 25, told the Mirror: "I could have had social services on my back or anything I love my kids. I live and die by my kids, but these people never think about that.
"These so-called friends forget that I'm a normal person with kids.
"I'm far better off without them. They are all just money grabbing people and I'm a human being with feelings. I can't believe they would go to these lengths just to make money."
The doting mum was furious at nanny Debbie Price who claimed Molly, four, and two-year-old Lilly Sue, were being neglected.
Debbie, 41, alleged: "If Kerry doesn't get her act together, her poor kids and going to have big problems when they're older."
Former Atomic Kitten Kerry was also devastated when long-time friend Joanne Goodier claimed she was a cocaine addict.
She blasted: "They are complete traitors, they have no feelings whatsoever. I let these people into my life, I was naive and a mug but I've never been happier because now they are out of my life and I've seen their true colours."
Kerry has had a massive row with mum Sue and they are no longer on speaking terms. She has also fallen out with friends Louise Oortwyn and Michelle Hunter and recently split from boyfriend Dave Cunningham.
It is a far cry from two years ago, when Kerry won millions of fans with her down to earth charm and gutsy determination on I'm A Celebrity...Get Me Out Of Here.
At the time she seemed to have the perfect set-up with Westlife husband Brian McFadden and their children.
But within months her marriage was on the rocks, ending in a bitter split while friends and relatives queued up to betray her secrets.
More recently she was arrested for allegedly brawling with a girl in a nightclub.
Not that Kerry is feeling sorry for herself, despite her traumatic experiences. "I often think, why me?," she admits. "But I'm really still dead lucky. It's not a disaster. I'm not dead. I'm alive and I've two little beautiful girls at home.
"Don't get me wrong - it does get me down and I'm still on anti-depressants. But I don't feel sorry for myself. I have my off days, but who doesn't?"
THE star, who has just launched her Pink Ladies taxi company for women only, checked into the Cottonwood clinic in Arizona last summer for six weeks with depression.
She also had two stints in the Priory clinic in West London after her marriage to 25-yearold Brian collapsed.
"It started when me and Brian split up. When I couldn't stop crying I went into the Priory with a nervous breakdown. That's when I realised I had depression.
"I've never felt so ashamed or embarrassed that I had to ask for help but it's the best thing I could have done. I wasn't well, I was miserable and it was the only thing to do for my little girls.
"Molly and Lilly had no idea, I try to keep what I can away from them. Before I realised I had depression I used to say to people, 'You'll be fine - get over it", but that's like saying to a cancer victim, 'Get well'."
Kerry is now single and insists she couldn't be happier - despite splitting from boyfriend Dave, 27.
She says: "I'm single now and I just want to clarify I wasn't dumped - I did the dumping. I'm quite content just being with my girls."
Despite not having time for men at the moment, Kerry revealed she hopes to find a new husband and have a baby boy in the next five years.
"I'd love to get married again and have a baby boy. I'm desperate for a boy. And if I have to go to the sperm bank to get one I will. I'd love to get married again. I don't want to be a lonely old spinster stinking of cat pi**.
"I'd like to think there will be someone special in my life in the future."
Kerry is in the final stage of being divorced from Brian following their split in October 2004. He is now with Australian singer Delta Goodrem - but Kerry insists she has no regrets.
"I wouldn't change anything because I didn't do anything wrong. But I wouldn't want to get divorced so quickly again. I never wanted to separate. It wasn't my choice.
ASKED how much time Brian has spent with the children recently, she replies: "Brian's Brian. He has his life and I have mine."
She is the first to admit to her ups and downs but Kerry says: "I've never been this content in my life. The most important people to me now are Molly and Lilly, and my best friend Lisa who I've known my whole life.
"All the people in my life now are my close friends. I am a bit wary now who I let in but I'm far from lonely.
"My new Pink Ladies business is taking up a lot of time. It's a great idea for women to be able to get a safe taxi home. I used the company before I passed me test. We want to spread Pink Ladies globally - we want to make it a pink world."
Kerry's parting words sum up the bubbly brunette perfectly: "The last two years have been one hell of an adventure. That's life and I take it as it comes. Try and take it with a pinch of salt, and if you can't then seek help."
Mirror
