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I'm really considering it you know. Someone said some hurtful things to me; they really hurt and I've being thinking I have enough of it and life.

They seem to pick fights and say awful things about me for no apparent. When I ask them to explain themselves they say 'you bleeping know what I mean ' and stuff. When I persist for an explaination they got even more pissed and retort to the same old line and how a 3 year old would understand. Well I'm sorry but just because I haven't the same comprehension skills as a 3 year old doesn't give them the right to abuse. Now I'm a reasonable guy and as long as people can backup what they're saying with an explaination and examples, fair enough I can accept it. But they never do that which makes it more hurtful.

Now they're starting to drag my personal life into it. They know bleep all about me. They don't know how tough my life is. They don't know how everyday is a struggle for me and my family. They don't know the challenges I faced growing up. I have very few friends due to fear of getting hurt like I did a few years back but if you ask any of them they'd tell you I'm the complete opposite of what they say I am. I know in my heart of hearts that I'm not like that that's why it hurts so much. Now I'm very sensitive and don't like fighting with anyone, lifes too short and all. But anyway this only make them more angry and shout more profanities and whatnot. I have only one ambition in life and that is to be accepted for who I am. It seems that I'm not getting that. (appart from my girlfriend, she's the most wonderfulist thing ever)

I lay awake most of the night think about it and this seems the best option. It's not the only factor leading to my decision but it's a huge chunck of it.

Thank you for listening, I had to get it off my chest and you seem a nice bunch.

This is a big issue, and I can't offer you a way out since you have to do it yourself, but I can say something - and I hope I won't offend you in any way.

You seem to know yourself quite well. You say you also have people that you consider friends and who know you well. They are the people that accept you the way you are and love you exactly like you are. I know from experience how hurtful it can be when people that really know **** think they know everything about you and the reasons why you do things you do, and then judge you by that criteria. It's wrong and hurtful, it's offending and it's appalling, but it seems to be human nature. Something to do with bad self confidence, rising above others and feeling bigger that way. When actually, in other's eyes, the opposite occurs. I often thought about suicide as a teenager when I was teased and finally beaten up at school, so I know a little about how you feel. I pulled through with the help of my family and closest friend.

You must be happy about your friends and loved ones. You love them, and don't they give you strenght? It's easier said then done, but I wish you could set aside those evil so called people's false oppinions, how ever loud they may present them. Remember that the people that really know you, love you. And remember, that the most important thing is to know yourself and to respect yourself for who you are. It's not easy not to let it get to you, for sensitive people like you and me it's really difficult. But I promise that over time, when you work on it, it gets easier. You need to built your confidence. If it's possible, try to avoid those people, but if you can't, face them (like you have). Be proud of your strength and yourself.

The people that love you, need you around. Tomorrow's always a new day, and an opportunity. There's always a possibility for things to change for better, never loose hope.

Best wishes and lots of strength to you, Brian.

xxx
Liisi

Brian many many people go threough a time when that seems like the only way out but please be asured what you are going through won't go on for ever. You are a great guy and strong enough to know you are better than these people. I'm pleased you have a girlfriend too you can talk too. Hang in there, things really do pass. Take it from an expert!

I can't really add much except a small saying. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Talk, Talk and Talk some more to those that care about you.

Brian, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem and if people who commit suicide could see the aftermath and years/lifetimes of misery and pain they leave behind for their loved ones then not one of them would do it.

it's easy to see it as an answer but it isn't. Please try to reach out to the people around you who love you and draw strength from them.

I know you wouldn't do that to your girlfriend and you don't really want to end your life you want to change your life so that it makes you happy again but it's hard to see things clearly when you're feeling low.

Hang in there and keep reading those pm's Brian. (((((hugs))))))
*If you can find it among the others who are also thinking of you right now, please look out for my pm too!

Wow - Westy slipped in there before me and said exactly the same things! We can't both be wrong Brian!

II really feel for you. I have been as low as you are feeling and it's the worse feeling in the world.

You talk about suicide but killing yourself isn't what you really want to do, you want the pain to end as it's unbearable. You need to deal with the pain not do something that will not only destroy your life but those of the people that love you.

As HC said you can get through it and will. You'll look back and see you have so much more to live for than you realise.
Try and avoid the situations that make you feel the worst and concentrate on positives in your life.

The best advice I can give you is that when you feel this way tell yourself the way you feel now is temporary and will pass and you just need to get to the good point again.

Take care Brian and if you ever need someone to talk to privately feel free to pm me anytime. Talking does help and a lot of people do care.

Brian, please never forget that we are all here for you, as are your offline friends.

(((((HUG)))))

There’s your key Brian mate, concentrate on it and anyone else who loves you,

Dear Brian,

everyone feels like that sometimes, but you need to be strong and get through it. As for these people they don't know you like you said, why listen to them when you know there wrong? Forget them.

Hello Casey-Jo and welcome to BBFans!

((((HUGS))))@Brian!

I wondered who are "they" that you wrote about? Is there any chance that anyone else can solve your problem than you by yourself? I mean if you're at school, there are always adults who can make things to stop and if you're at work there're people that can make that kind of things to stop. Usually it helps to have someone professional to solve these problems.

There's no easy answers for your case. But there are always solutions for everything - suicide isn't any solution ever. You must keep on fighting for your life, and believing that you know yourself by heart "they" don't. And keep on believeing that bad people gets their bad prices sooner or later. They won't get anything good ever for them for being bad persons towards someone. Or actually I believe that you're not the only one who they are teasing. Keep united with other ones - together you're stronger!

And you don't have to accept anything that they can't really explain!

Show must go on!

Keep strong Brian for yourself and those people that like you for who you are. The only advice I would give to you is to talk to someone about it so they can help you through this bad time. (((hugs)))

Brian, I can only echo what all the other people have said.
As you can see this is the 12th reply already, so people on here are always listening and will help you no matter what.
Keep battling, and keep strong, us Man U fans have to stick together in hard times!!

Brian - I too have been right where you are now. It is a horrible feeling and the main thing is to try to keep focused on the things you DO have. There are lots of people here who are concerned about you - and you have a girlfriend who loves you. Ignore these negative people who are hurting you. Believe me, there are plenty of people out there who judge you without the slightest idea of who you are or what you are going through. You just have to be true to yourself. Like Liisi said, that is hard when you are a sensitive person. But please just hang on in there. Lots of love xxx

Brian, you have no idea how much I want to give you a hug right now.

Please just try and stay strong - don't let these people grind you down, please.

I would be echoing other people if I said more but there are people who care xx