Oh the joy watching Freddie and Bea debate Hira's eviction.
They are under the false impression that she must not have been as nice as she was making out to be.
They both decide that she was obviously doing all her bitching in the DR.
Bea says to Freddie there must have been other things Though.
"I am sure" Says Freddie. "maybe she was more herself in the DR"
Bea looks around to make sure no one is in earshot - "I've been really outspoken in the DR, that is why I was thinking ****"
Freddie says: "Yeah, but you have been outspoken outside the DR too"
Bea: "Not as outspoken, not as outspoken, not that I have any fear of being outspoken, but it's..." She whispers to Freddie "Were we talking last night"
Freddie: "Yeah"
Bea: "Because you know I have been, it is not a secret, that I have been feeling not real negative but certainly less positive then I am used to being"
Freddie: "Yeah"
Bea: "And you know, I am aware how you can bring down a whole group by being just why, you know, I just wouldn't you know, even talking to you I know I can speak sort of candidly to you and it is not going to get me in any trouble; I just didn't want to be unpleasant, I don't mean unpleasant, but you know my observations on people aren't favourable, em, I have been more outspoken in the DR then I have been with anybody"
Bea is starting to notice that her revelation to Freddie on her DR assassination tactic is not going too well, he is sitting stoney-faced listening to her
Bea: "That is what it is there for isn't it, to get things of your chest - well some people might use it as that is where you go to get the things of your chest that you do not have the balls to say out loud I haven't been saying those things - well it's not like I - it's not em, views I haven't expressed, just I haven't expressed them as explicitly, because it's just but, negative"
Freddie: "Emm"
Bea: "The nominations this week, not a sausage of a problem, heh heh, I had a lot to say"
Freddie has a weak chuckle.
Bea: "But then I thought god you know, but then when you go to the DR to get things of your chest, and you're explicit about what you are saying and no holds barred, and you come out and you feel you have had that cathartic effect of you know getting it of your chest, then you come out and you are going to be quite to decent to people, I thought god maybe that is actually going to look really two-faced - I really don't know what exactly two-faced is because usually I say what I think and I don't go round bitching about people if i have something to say, it will be after careful consideration and weighing up a situation, so then I was thinking - If I, you know, I have said things about Lisa in the DR like, she is really stressing me out, blah blah blah, this that and the other, then I come out and she is sitting here at the bench and we are having a cigarette I am not going to in a huff with her because I actually feel quite relieved. So that sort of thing I am thinking - will people think I am being really two-faced because one moment I am slagging her off and the next moment I am being pleasant to her and responding to what she says, but then what - maybe that is taken it too far, but then people will see well of course you are not going to come out and be rude to somebody if somebody speaks to you then you talk back to them and make it..
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Freddie: "Yeah"
Bea: "Maybe that is not being two-faced, but I was feeling **** but then I was thing maybe people will think I m being really horrible because I am not shouting my mouth of to everybody..."
Siavash joins them so they stop talking about Bea's DR room tictacs.
I need to go and buy food for my family so I will get back to this fantastic reaction to Hira's eviction ASAP.
